In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away
Looking back at my old pictures and conversations with people, I get the same feeling I had when it first happened. If your down, it brings back memories from a better time. All the feelings from the inside jokes and butterflies you felt then come rushing back. It's good to remember the past but you should always look towards the future. Go for new memories and experiences that bring up even better feelings. Never let the stress and anxiety you feel now keep you down (even though i have three test tomorrow). Here's a random thought. Lately things have been too ironic. Some aren't too bad but a few are.. unwanted? I suppose someone who is ironic is somewhat a hypocrite. Not to say I don't still care for them, but it just bugs me a bit to think that they tell people not to do one thing but do it themselves. Wonder if they'll grow out of it or if it'll pass... here's to me hoping so.

Try looking another way

Everything is okay in the end, if it's not ok, then it's not the end.
I suppose you can think of it as if it's never over. You may feel as if it's so tiring and you would do anything to change it. Yeah, well so does every other person. Why do you think, even though I hate driving, that I would want to get a licenses? Everyone in Owensboro knows each other and each other's business. That's just a little too close for me. I need a change in scenery. Hence the reason I love road trips =) Doesn't matter where just going some where different so I can go off and explore. Life's way too mundane and leaves too many questions left unanswered. So the question is, "How can we change it?"

Shame to who?

Everyone gets into a fight every once in a while. It’s how you deal with it that’s important. Is it harder to fight with dignity or surrender in shame? I believe one should at least try their best and give it their all before giving up. You can’t always be fighting and there’s always a time where enough is enough. No matter the fight, whether it’s physical fight with an acquaintance or a emotional fight with family, backing down isn’t shameful, it’s mature and probably the better choice in a long run. Fighting only brings up new troubles after finishing one. And just because you choose to fight, doesn’t mean it a justified fight. The people that deserve no shame are those who avoide fights that do nothing for them. Before making the first move, go through your options and go with the best. There’s nothing wrong with being prepared.

Kitty kitty

Curiosity killed the cat. How? I don’t understand… Never did. I suppose I’m being curious at the moment but I seem to be breathing. How did the kitty die? Well after some research, it turns out that the proverb started as “care killed the cat” and care was used to express the meaning of worry or sorrow. It actually means “inquisitiveness can lead one into dangerous situations”. Well… that’s a nice thought. People are so hypocritical. They say asking questions is good and that there are no stupid questions (just stupid people =p). I believe that curiosity and confuse rule the world. How would things be discovered without curiosity and confusion? Let’s say they started out confused about something. They would probably keep at it till they figured it out because of their curiosity. I may not be making sense but love the “keep going” attitude I showed while attempting to make a point =)

loving sister?

Yesterday was interesting. My sister came home for the day because she was in need of surgery. Since I had no school, due to weather, I stayed home and slept. Because I was up by the she had just arrived home, I have come to the conclusion that she had woke me up. I leave my bed and meet her at the foot of the stairs. I look at her and ask, “how was it?”
She replied:
Tiffany-what’s this? *pokes gauze*
Me- crap…*blink blink*
Tiffany- oh… then what’s this? *terrified look*
Me- your tongue??
Saddened by the fact that I had miss placed my laser pointer, I looked for other objects that would get her attention. And with the luck I have, of course, I found nothing. For some reason, every time my sister is sick or incapacitated, I have to take care of her. If it’s me that’s feeling unwell or anything, she just comes to my room to bother me or attempt to prove that I was faking. So even though it takes me an hour to sleep, I got back out of bed and went down stairs to heat up Italian-style soup for her to squish in her mouth. Now, when I’m on my way home, I have to pick up more soup and more mushy crap up from Walmart… I wonder what I can get her to eat… if she gets desperate I’m sure I could get something nasty… loving sisters.

yippe bow wow

If MY dog was to give advice on life, make sure no one will step on you. I have a small Chihuahua who shakes constantly. No, I don’t pull a Paris Hilton and put my dog in a bag but I do talk to her. After all these years I’ve had her she’s still so hyper, you figure she would slow down from all the years bearing down on her. But like they say, “You never know how much they mean until they’re gone”, definitely true. I already have regrets and she’s not even gone =p She’s only about 5? Maybe… I can’t ever remember her age. I do, however, know that her birthday is June 19 (SO hard to remember since mine is June 18th). Don’t take things for granted. She’s not even gone yet and I already do.

to be or not to be one of them?

I’m one of those girls who love people. Maybe not big crowds but I warm up to them pretty quick. Even though I love hanging out with people I do need my time part from them. I’m not saying I hate them but I use the time to think :p (yes, I think). Other times, all I what is to be with friends and not think about anything. If I pretend to be ok then my friends will think I am, then, just for a little while, I forget I’m not.

I’m not one of those girls who get all depressed over some guy. I will admit that I almost became one of those girls, but luckily I got out of it quick enough. No matter whom they are, boy or girl, I just don’t see the point in trusting them. To say “you are just like the rest of them, no shock there”, maybe me making an excuse for them when they seem to disappoint. For me there are different levels of trust. Although a few of my friends know my darkest secrets, not one knows all of them. I guess I don’t like expressing myself too much but that’s because it’s usually none of your business (O.o). I have second thoughts about so many things because I’m afraid of getting hurt or hurting you.

I’m one of those people who push you away if you’re getting too close. I’m not sure why but I do. Sometimes I pull away for good, sometimes it’s just for a while. Just depends.

I’m not one of those people who get obsessive about anyone, especially about people who I’ll just meet. And I don’t think internet relationships are genuine, they’re creepy. If you have an internet relationship then that’s kind of odd, why not start something with someone real, someone you could see. Once again, creepy and kind of desperate in my opinion.

I’m one of those Asians who, without doubt, has spelling errors (thank god for spell check).I’m usually a bad Asian.. yeah, I can fold pieces of paper, so what? That’s just being stereotypical and that’s a “no no”, as some like to point out.
I’m me and I love being me sometimes =) Most of the time I go with the flow but if I don’t want to do it then I won’t, it’s as easy as that. It's fine with me if I have to stand up for something I believe in, even if I have to stand alone.

come on, dont punk out

They say be smart, know your limits, control yourself. What if we thought we were being smart? What if we thought we knew where our limits? What if we can’t control ourselves? Yesterday, I realized the fact that we might not know ourselves as well as we would hope. You think to yourself that it’s only one and then you’d stop or just until a certain point, then you’ll quit. When they say, “push yourself to the limit”, I highly doubt they were talking about your morals. I’m sure if you were to ask people if they planned to end up the way they did, they’d have no clue how it’d happen. It’s not something most people would strive for. We all understand the strong temptations of curiosity and peer pressure but its how you handle them that matters.

crap...i forgot?

It’s only been the first month, in the already very long year, and I’ve already done things I regret. Well… I don’t know if I would use the word regret but I do feel uneasy about my decisions. Should I have done what I did or say what I thought? Most likely not. I've even put things off that would've made this year even more exciting. I have yet to receive my license which I could’ve gotten at the beginning of the year but was too unpracticed to even attempt to get on the bypass.Fml. I had already planned on road trips out of state but I guess I should’ve planned out more practice time with the car. This school year has turned out to be more eventful and secretive than other years. I’m sure that next year will bring more new first and even more shocking secrets.

2010

It’s finally 2010. Only a year left till we graduate high school and move on next to college. As we grow physically and mentally we must leave behind what we have feared and use what we have conquered in our future. Open your eyes to what can come instead of what may. Leave behind the bad memories and just carry forward the lessons and morels you’ve learned from them. Of course some goals and friends have changed, but never let go of you. Don’t become one of those people who feed off misery or mooch off others. Become someone you’re not ashamed to hide. If you keep walking with your head down then we’ll keep seeing you as the lonely girl who never seems to fit in. If you keep yelling crap in the hall ways we’ll see you as the arrogant jerk that you seem to be. Show yourself as you want others to see you. Be confident. Be proud. And quit slouching.