family of fish

I was sitting at home alone thinking about how much I really knew about my family. It turns out that there are just too many things to know. This weekend I’ve realized some new things about my family. To some of the things I’ve learned I feel closer to them but with some, I prefer if I didn’t know. Some things just don’t need to be shared between people. I suppose that’s why there are secrets. From now on, I’ll stay away from anything that looks “fishy”. It’s horrifying to know the true secrets we hide from each other. You don’t have to know every about each other to be close. Just except them for the secrets you do know. Most can’t always be a happy family but 50% isn’t that bad either. Being truthful at certain points in time may matter but secrets aren't always a bad thing.

Deceiving

Deceiving
Why is it that people are so intent on earning money? They do everything they can to get it. Scams hurt the innocent and reward the greedy. How is that justified? Many times I’ve heard that police officers were the ones being said to be who break the law the most. I’ve seen them get closer to a red light and turn on their sirens. Right after passing the light, it goes off. How can people abuse their power to such an extent that it deals with the law? So many people in the world shame their profession. Some doctors become biased enough to decide whether or not a man may live or die. It’s sad to see how much money and power can influence a life.

shameful misery

There are always old folk telling the “kiddies” to live without regret. Regret seems to be a way of showing insecurity. Who doesn’t have either of those? I guess something to keep in mind is that no one’s perfect. No one likes everything about themselves. But making fun of someone to make you feel better is pathetic and parasitic. Feeding off another ones misery to satisfy yourself. The bully’s aren’t as bad as the movies and story portrays them as, but they’re still hurtful. Watching them prey off others seems sad… for the bully. It looks as if people have gone back to more primitive ways. There are so many reasons to be ashamed of my generation but hopefully we’ll make up for it when we’re running the world. Now that’s a creepy thought.

Complexly insignificant

How is it possible that some things seem so simple but others are so complex? For example, the human body. First, you have the skin, muscle, bone, and tissue. But then it goes down farther and more in depth. This concept can be used for just about anything. There’s always a deeper, more complex, answer.

I’m amazed how people were able to develop and discover the things we know and use today. I think about life and how everything really depends on you and the people surrounding you. Lately, I’ve thought of my life as insignificant. But then, aren’t I? It means nothing to die, right? I mean, there are people dying and there will always be people dying. That may seem like a cold view of life but it only means or seems like something when you’re somehow connected to them. I’m not too sure if I believe what I’m typing but it’s something to think about.

I hope to mean something to someone. The next thought to follow would be, for those who are my someones, I don’t want to hurt them…. I don’t know… it’s all so complicated. Everything seems to be complicated; even breathing (at least the scientific view). Last year I took two science classes but it didn’t seem enough. This year I’m taking three. I keep taking science classes to simplify my views of life. It seems if someone has a better understanding of some things, it seems uncomplicated; simpler.

comparing fruit

Throughout one’s life, they’ll hear one question asked repeatedly. What are you going to be when you grow up? At such a young age, most of us aren’t sure. But even though I’ve grown since then, I’m still undecided. For a while, I thought I wanted to be an oncologist but then so many people in my family decided they wanted that career as well. I don’t want to be in a career where I’ll be compared to the rest of my family. I did however; realize that I wanted to be in the medical field. I hate life changing decisions; they put too much stress on me. I guess I’ll just have to live with it, like everything else.

Ghosts and Goblins

Halloween. The one day where children are encouraged to take candy from strangers. A time where people run around dressed as princesses and power rangers. Many people say it’s a way for them to have fun without needing an excuse. Halloween has always been a weird day for me. From being too afraid to knock on the door to running away from a grown man who decided to chase me two blocks (after jumping up from his homemade dirt grave). I can’t say it’s my favorite time of the year… It’s not bad but not great. I suppose the people who you spent it with makes up your day. So here’s me hoping my Halloween this year will be….different?

Not seen but maybe heard

They say there are those who never pass on to the after life/heaven. It’s said they live their lives on earth along with us. Some people are able to catch a glimpse of them or they see nothing. Very few are able to interact with them. Whether or not this is a curse or a gift, to know someone who had passed on was living with you in your house is a chilling thought. I know that a number of people find it comforting for their loved ones to dwell among them knowing that they’re watching over the house and everyone in it. I’m not one of them. It creeps me out and gives me goose bumps. The fact that they’re dead and can’t be seen makes me feel uneasy. I prefer the visibly alive.