What I want

I’m finally going to get a chance to do what I’ve been wanting. But now that it’s really an option for me, I’m not so sure anymore… I’m afraid and nervous about the whole decision. I don’t want to disappoint my friend but it now makes me feel uneasy. I do need a new surrounding but what about here. Do I just leave it behind? Everything’s going to change. I think that’s what I need. I don’t like being called out or standing out; I like to blend in. There are too many things that I’m uncertain about so how will I decide? I guess the question that I really need answered is, “will everything end up ok?” All this thinking is making me frustrated and nervous… I guess I’ll just sleep it away.