Stuck

Alone at night, you begin to replay the day. Most often, I stop my flashback at the moment I get nervous or flustered. I try desperately to think of ways to reverse the damage I had done previously. Usually, it’s irreversible. Life isn’t perfect no matter how many times you try and change it. You may be stuck in a situation where you’re just not happy and nothing brings you up. The words “got to get out” repeat numerously throughout your head. But it hurts you to know, that you never will. Always being tired and unenthusiastic about this mundane schedule makes life pretty unbearable. Nowadays, it’ll all about being spontaneous but it still doesn’t help with the thoughts in my head. I wonder what drastic event must take place in order for me to be satisfied.