halloween suprise

Being afraid is something that many don’t like to share. Other than those who have a certain mental disease, everyone has something they’re afraid of. As a child I was afraid of the little girl from The Ring, Samara. Since I had long black hair, a simple look in the mirror with my hair in front of my face would freak me out. Since I was already afraid, I thought, “why not make those around me scared too?” I made sure all my friends had seen the movie before I had attempted my joke. Halloween was coming up so I decided to plan it for that day. In the end I was successful in freaking people and some even cried. To this day the hairs on my arm still stand up when I'm alone in a dark room with a TV.

Causing Bunions

Shoes. They’re used for walking, warmth, and relating to others. Some maybe wondering how it would relate to others. I’m sure everyone has heard the sayings “take a walk in their shoes”. Some people are so insensitive to the point where they break another person down to crying. Yesterday in physiology class, our teacher talked about the ability to distinguish emotions with expressions or voice tone. He mentioned a (obvious) fact about women were better at distinguishing emotions than men. Men don’t seem to know that the smallest comment could have such an enormous impact on a woman. Some women remember things for months to years. Because men seem so crazy and careless, they sometimes forget that men are also insecure. Something that meant nothing could make them feel “less of a man”. Everyone has something to be insecure about; it’s nothing to be ashamed of. We’re all human; shoes hurt and cause bunion/scars.

Frosty nights

Simple things like the cool wind blowing on a frosty night change my mood so drastically. Not many things can change what I feel in such a positive way, so quickly. Taking time to sit, so I may ponder, could even alter my attitude. But when is there time? Do we have time to watch the grass grow or to watch the leaves change colors? Time is always an issue or the solution. Time may pass too quickly for some, but for others, time heals many wounds. Thinking too much into the future makes me feel anxious and uneasy. When things are too much, a walk in the cold night always relaxes me. There's too much and too little to do in life. It may not make sense to you but for others, it means so much. It ironic how things work out for people.

Never be afraid to sit awhile and think

The ideal days for sitting around and doing nothing would definitely be when it’s pouring. It’s perfect for those moments that bombard you. Everyone has moments when a situation that’s so frustration just won’t go away. Sometimes it helps to just close your eyes, sit, and listen. The taping of the computer keys reminds me of the patter of the calming rain. I love the first few unexpected drops that wake me up from the unwelcome messes I make in life. Unlike some, I don’t mind walking through the rain; it’s refreshing. I’m not too favorable of the sun but I will admit that it’s need for continuing life. Some things just can’t be avoided.

What I want

I’m finally going to get a chance to do what I’ve been wanting. But now that it’s really an option for me, I’m not so sure anymore… I’m afraid and nervous about the whole decision. I don’t want to disappoint my friend but it now makes me feel uneasy. I do need a new surrounding but what about here. Do I just leave it behind? Everything’s going to change. I think that’s what I need. I don’t like being called out or standing out; I like to blend in. There are too many things that I’m uncertain about so how will I decide? I guess the question that I really need answered is, “will everything end up ok?” All this thinking is making me frustrated and nervous… I guess I’ll just sleep it away.

High Money

Money. Many powerful people believe they’re better than most because they’re wealthier. Those elitist may have worked hard for their money but it doesn’t mean they can put down those who earn less. But it is true that not all rich people are snobs. There are, however, some who don’t earn much but still believe they should be put above everyone else. They believe they should receive respect after nothing. I would call them arrogant.

Just because one has a high status or money doesn’t mean they are spoiled. To dislike someone because they were given something you weren’t is childish and vein. Along with money, jealousy is also green. To make something out of your life, you need to make friends because you never know when you need help. However, no one wants an overbearing jerk to get ahead in life. So shrink your head and fake a smile because you’re probably not going anywhere if you don’t.

Stuck

Alone at night, you begin to replay the day. Most often, I stop my flashback at the moment I get nervous or flustered. I try desperately to think of ways to reverse the damage I had done previously. Usually, it’s irreversible. Life isn’t perfect no matter how many times you try and change it. You may be stuck in a situation where you’re just not happy and nothing brings you up. The words “got to get out” repeat numerously throughout your head. But it hurts you to know, that you never will. Always being tired and unenthusiastic about this mundane schedule makes life pretty unbearable. Nowadays, it’ll all about being spontaneous but it still doesn’t help with the thoughts in my head. I wonder what drastic event must take place in order for me to be satisfied.

Big Blue

There are countless occasions where innocent people have been wronged. You might even ponder what occurrence took place for that action to follow through? I believe there are those who use wrongdoings as a last resort and some that do it for the fun of it. It makes one think about the kind of world we live in. The cost of the world depends on the actions that take place in it. My next question comes up as, is the world worth anything? Of course the value of provider is added to the equation but it doesn’t quite equal out with all the evil plots that come about. I can’t determine whether or not we deserve the planet but we do require it to live. Since I can’t come up with a set response, I suppose it’s up to others. Maybe recycling could be used to represent it. If you recycle, you believe that even with all the mischief in the world, it’s worth saving. If you litter or just throw away recyclables, you believe it’s much too late for us to be saved. Either way it’s just something to think about.

Remembering the Past

These blogs are required for a grade in my IB English class. They changed from handwritten journals to computerized blogs. A few days ago, I came upon my sister’s old journals for the very same class. Before moving to a new state, my family went through some hard times. Talking honestly about the situation, I felt alone. My sister acted as if it didn’t affect her, as if it didn’t mean anything to her. Reading each page, she revealed what she had truly felt. I had learned that it had impacted her just as much as me, maybe even more. My first reaction was anger. Back then, I had made my emotions apparent but all she did was scoff and turn away. She made me feel stupid and alone for something that she felt the very same about. Then I thought I was over reacting and that she just didn’t want to share. In the end, I agree to the fact that it wasn’t my business to know how she felt. It just would have been easier to get through if I had someone who could relate to me.

changing

Being different is hard but it also can’t be helped. Some try to change so drastically that it doesn’t suit them at all. They alter their personality so that it fits another group’s preference. But I ask, “Is it really worth all the trouble and time?” There are already people who like you for who you are, why risk it and change? Many people say they won’t change for anyone. They say they’re ok with who they are. When I look at them, I can’t seem to recognize who they are. Falling to peer pressure is the same. You might not think you’re changing but others can see what you can’t. The bystanders witness the good and the bad that come to you. It’s how you react to them that are important. Don’t expose yourself to others who don’t respect themselves or you. But then not all changes are bad. The changes that better you won’t be looked down upon but admired.